the end and the beginning of something new

On the 22 of june G decided to end things with me. Said he felt like he was beneath me and he didn’t deserve me. He needed time to go work on himself etc. The irony is that it came right after he got into school and got a job. while I understand his reasons for wanting to work on himself. I can’t help but think he used me, suck me dry and then up and left when he no longer needed me. It like he step up from being leach.

In all honesty I’m not sure about my feelings. I not mad nor am I angry, maybe disappointed and a little relieved. He broke up with me and by the end of that week iw as outside and doing better. My sad grey rainy clouds of depression are finally letting in some light and I have hope.

So last weekend I started to ask my guy friends on my Facebook about love and relationship.One guys answers led to me asking more questions and us talking a lot more than usual. I like him. He makes me behave like a silly school girl laughing and smiling at my phone. Something I truly need.

He describe love like a dream. He said that

love can put you in the depths of the Ocean and be the a guiding light. Love in relationships should just blow like the warm summer air and the thought of it should grow like the trees in the wild.

 

He had me there. Thursday is suppose to be our date, I’m worried I’m rushing into things and it wont work. Maybe I’m just over thinking it. I’ll update you all on Thursday.